Fat Music and Yarn

Oh the deliciousness of Nutella on absolutely everything. Yes, this means I failed at my diet and ate it’s goodness till I felt sick. Ms. Flow came in to visit the other day and decided to peer pressure me yesterday. God was it good. But, I wont let that take me down, back on my diet today. 

I’m doing the Atkins diet. No, that does not mean I eat a pound of bacon morning, noon, and night. It’s never been like that, though the average person when asked proclaims, “Oh, is that the diet where you get to eat as much meat and cheese as you want?!” No, people, that’s not what it is. It’s a low carb diet, but the majority of the carbs you eat need to be vegetables, a tiny bit of cheese, and protein to keep you full for longer. If you decide to eat like the common thought, you’re going to end up in the hospital. And, that food selection is only the first part, then you gradually add food back in. It’s quite wonderful if you have no idea how certain foods work with your body. And I do mean YOUR body. Not your Mom, not your cousin, not your bff Jim… you. Sure, food generally works the same with the majority of the population, but if I were to eat the exact same thing as any one of my friends for a week, I would be effected differently than them.  

This isn’t some scientific knowledge, it’s my opinion from what I’ve read and what I’ve experienced. But, I strongly believe that the majority of the problems people have with food is just not understanding it. Luckily, food isn’t poison (unless you’re allergic to something…but I’m not), so I’m going to enjoy my human experiments, with me as the guinea pig. I don’t want to try to reinvent the wheel though, so I’m doing Atkins. Each phase has you gradually adding back certain foods, you take some time eating that, and then see what it does. If your goal is to lose weight (rather than maintain), and after eating whatever food you just added you see you don’t lose or you gain, then you can’t eat that food just yet. 

It’s wonderful… but Nutella is not apart of the first Phase. It’s okay. It happens. I just wont let that positive thinking let me do it again. I have a long way to go and Nutella, you bitch, will not take me down this time. 

I couldn’t think of any other way to start this blog but to talk about myself. Because, well… This is about my life, so why not?

Honestly, I don’t like talking about myself too much, so I’m going to get this over with in just one post. So here it goes…

I am a musician and private music teacher.  I mainly play flute, piccolo, and piano but I’ll play any instrument I can get my hands on. In two weeks I will be an official graduate of George Mason University with a Masters degree in flute performance. Hence the above picture and why I’ll end up talking about music in later posts.

I’m not very good at visual art, though the rest of my family is, and I wanted to find a medium to express myself other than music that, well… doesn’t cost a lot. I’m already a “starving” artist, and art supplies are expensive! I eventually found the Japanese art of crocheting called Amigurumi. I taught myself with some online tutorials and I’m in love, and have many big plans for these cute dolls.

Finally, I’m fat. If you’re a nice person, which apparently all my friends are, don’t go saying “You’re not fat! You’re so pretty!” Shut it people. I have eyes and plenty of mirrors. Besides, weighing 202lbs at a height of 5’4”… it’s just not healthy, and I don’t feel good physically and mentally with all that excess flub. Okay, I’ll admit that I think I have a pretty face, but that face is covered in a fat suit. 

I used to be pretty small. Not stick thin, but healthy small. I then some how acquired a wonderful thing called PCOS (poly-cystic ovarian syndrome), which made my testosterone levels hit the roof and my fat storage ability became an over achiever. I went from 120lbs to 200lbs in 5 months. Needless to say, I have quite impressive stretch marks to show off now.